Hi to everybody, which will tell in this journal is a truth that I never told anyone, a truth that has to do with what happened to me long ago, when Amy was spared my first time, Amy was so good to me She is so kind to everybody, she was a true friend, there is proof of that: my page, she created this page for me. As I was saying, when Amy and I had problems she forgive me this time, we became friends, but I realized that she had no more time to spend with me, she had another friend, her name was Kat, aka Severita, she from Germany, I saw that Amy had more time for Kat to me, started to wake up those dark feelings that never had before. At this point I feel abandoned, jealous and angry that Amy had time to another, but me being a coward and weak never told, why not say so? Fear, I was afraid she think bad of me if I said that. So what I did was to pretend that everything was fine, do that caused consequences later. Then I met Kat, she had nothing special, was ´´common and ordinary´´we were friends for little time, but she did something for me: she was the only German that Kaspar Hauser drew for me. Then came these day that changed me forever, a day that I want but do not forget that day blew my anger and I yelled to Amy, she block her talk page and never more talk me, Kat talk with me and I insulted her, she also block her page and never more talk with me, I realized what I did but the damage was done, and I sunk into sadness and anger, hatred and sadness and became corrupted me someone unhappy and sad, maybe you tell me if I ve forgotten to Amy? Ive never forgotten how to forget someone who was so friendly and kind to me at that time, a wonderful friend, even though she never told me I was visiting her page, watching her drawings, and I could not say anything and although I had sent messages never answers. During this time I met new people in the Deviantart, some of everybody, but was still unhappy and not accepting my mistake, all you have done that time has been mourn, hate me and hate others and say not only apologize and say the truth. I can assure you that I stopped being the person I am now a happy person and I accepted the mistakes of the past. There will be no problems that I told the truth because I never dared to say, the only thing missing is me to forgive myself and being forgivened. I wrote this for everyone to know what happened to me at that moment, you did not know the pain and guilt that I had at the time, but to tell the truth, sadness, anger and guilt disappeared, I feel liberated. Thank you to everybody for listen me.

Nicole